Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Puertas que te dejan entrar y salir pero nunca se abren...


Cuarto

Maria[da]

Who's Maria[da]???... and why should i care?

Maria[da] es esa clase de persona que quiere ver tu interior, por eso es cirujana!!!


Te extraño
extraño
extraño?

Tanto
[que duele]

Lo siento en la carne viva
de esta enorme herida
que tu ausencia causa

Te extraño
tanto
que cambiaria [el aire]
por ver tu sonrisa
[aparecer]
como el crepúsculo

Porque
tan solo
la luz [de tu mirada]
iluminara mi vida
[por un segundo]

Por sentir
el calor
[en este frió desierto]

Te extraño
tanto
que duele
[en el fondo de mi alma]
tanto
que no siento ser yo
[hay un gran vacio]
que
nada llenara
mas que tu voz
mas que tu amor

Como quisiera [ser la luna]
para iluminar
tu camino
en las noches de olvido

Como quisiera
[ser sol]
para calentar
tu cuerpo
en las tardes
de frió

Como quisiera
ser [estrella]
fugaz
para iluminar
tu mirada
y cumplir tus deseos

Como me gustaria [ser agua]
para recorrer
tu cuerpo
como quisiera ser
[tu musa]
para inspirar en ti
lo que tu inspiras
[en
mi]

Vete
aunque me partas
aunque mi vida se quede sin sentido
[y el sol no salga mas]
vete
aunque me veas llorar
[aunque veas como me quedo sin aire]
y seas testigo de como
ME DERRUMBO!!!

Vete
[aunque]
mi boca no vuelva a
sonreir
y en mis ojos solo veas
[soledad]
aunque me ahogue en
mis lagrimas
vete y dejame
aunque sepas que
te amo
[y muera poco a poco]

Vete
[porque si te quedas]
seras testigo
de
como te olvido[?]
[afuera]
la luna
alumbra la calle
aqui en mi habitación
un foco
apaga
[mi alegria]
mis ganas
[el silencio]
mientras la musica
[a todo volumen]
apaga y enciende
[lagrimas]
que ruedan por mi...
[cuerpo desnudo]

Hoy
vive
en mi alma [miedo]
y el solo recordar
reir
sentirme viva

Es dificil entender
como
[mil palabras]
mil personas
[mil cosas]
me tienen vacia
TAN VACIA!!!

Por fin
encontré
una razon
para sonreir
[todas las noches]
antes
de dormir
[eres]
mi razon
para
ser
f/e/l/i/z

Una persona con un amigo imaginario.. es un loco, millones con un amigo imaginario es UNA RELIGION...


Numb3r

Marcos (Mondragon)

Who's Marcos???... and why should i care?

Marcos es un ejecutivo autómata que hace eso que todos hacemos de 9 a 6, después de eso la (supuesta) libertad lo invade y entonces enloquece, a veces en forma de poemas, a veces en forma de ensayos (como el que leerán a continuación), a veces en forma de destrozar su auto en el periférico (de lo cual a sobrevivido ya varias veces), su amistad es adictiva y ya llevo mas de 10 años consumiéndola...

Do u believe in God???

Wich one???

Why???

Do u need it???



Richard Dawkins, who holds the interesting title of “Charles Simonyi professor of the public understanding of science” at Oxford University, is a master of scientific exposition and synthesis. When it comes to his own specialty, evolutionary biology, there is none better. But the purpose of this book, his latest of many, is not to explain science. It is rather, as he tells us, “to raise consciousness,” which is quite another thing.

The nub of Dawkins’s consciousness-raising message is that to be an atheist is a “brave and splendid” aspiration. Belief in God is not only a delusion, he argues, but a “pernicious” one. On a scale of 1 to 7, where 1 is certitude that God exists and 7 is certitude that God does not exist, Dawkins rates himself a 6: “I cannot know for certain but I think God is very improbable, and I live my life on the assumption that he is not there.”

Dawkins’s case against religion follows an outline that goes back to Bertrand Russell’s classic 1927 essay “Why I Am Not a Christian.” First, discredit the traditional reasons for supposing that God exists. (“God” is here taken to denote the Judeo-Christian deity, presumed to be eternal, all-powerful, all-good and the creator of the world.) Second, produce an argument or two supporting the contrary hypothesis, that God does not exist. Third, cast doubt on the transcendent origins of religion by showing that it has a purely natural explanation. Finally, show that we can have happy and meaningful lives without worshiping a deity, and that religion, far from being a necessary prop for morality, actually produces more evil than good.

The first three steps are meant to undermine the truth of religion; the last goes to its pragmatic value.

What Dawkins brings to this approach is a couple of fresh arguments — no mean achievement, considering how thoroughly these issues have been debated over the centuries — and a great deal of passion. The book fairly crackles with brio. Yet reading it can feel a little like watching a Michael Moore movie. There is lots of good, hard-hitting stuff about the imbecilities of religious fanatics and frauds of all stripes, but the tone is smug and the logic occasionally sloppy.

Dawkins fans accustomed to his elegant prose might be surprised to come across such vulgarisms as “sucking up to God” and “Nur Nurny Nur Nur” (here the author, in a dubious polemical ploy, is imagining his theological adversary as a snotty playground brat). It’s all in good fun when Dawkins mocks a buffoon like Pat Robertson and fundamentalist pastors like the one who created “Hell Houses” to frighten sin-prone children at Halloween. But it is less edifying when he questions the sincerity of serious thinkers who disagree with him, like the late Stephen Jay Gould, or insinuates that recipients of the million-dollar-plus Templeton Prize, awarded for work reconciling science and spirituality, are intellectually dishonest (and presumably venal to boot). In a particularly low blow, he accuses Richard Swinburne, a philosopher of religion and science at Oxford, of attempting to “justify the Holocaust,” when Swinburne was struggling to square such monumental evils with the existence of a loving God. Perhaps all is fair in consciousness-raising. But Dawkins’s avowed hostility can make for scattershot reasoning as well as for rhetorical excess. Moreover, in training his Darwinian guns on religion, he risks destroying a larger target than he intends.

The least satisfying part of this book is Dawkins’s treatment of the traditional arguments for the existence of God. The “ontological argument” says that God must exist by his very nature, since he possesses all perfections, and it is more perfect to exist than not to exist.

The “cosmological argument” says that the world must have an ultimate cause, and this cause could only be an eternal, God-like entity. The “design argument” appeals to special features of the universe (such as its suitability for the emergence of intelligent life), submitting that such features make it more probable than not that the universe had a purposive cosmic designer.

These, in a nutshell, are the Big Three arguments. To Dawkins, they are simply ridiculous. He dismisses the ontological argument as “infantile” and “dialectical prestidigitation” without quite identifying the defect in its logic, and he is baffled that a philosopher like Russell — “no fool” — could take it seriously. He seems unaware that this argument, though medieval in origin, comes in sophisticated modern versions that are not at all easy to refute. Shirking the intellectual hard work, Dawkins prefers to move on to parodic “proofs” that he has found on the Internet, like the “Argument From Emotional Blackmail: God loves you. How could you be so heartless as not to believe in him? Therefore God exists.” (For those who want to understand the weaknesses in the standard arguments for God’s existence, the best source I know remains the atheist philosopher J. L. Mackie’s 1982 book “The Miracle of Theism.”)

It is doubtful that many people come to believe in God because of logical arguments, as opposed to their upbringing or having “heard a call.” But such arguments, even when they fail to be conclusive, can at least give religious belief an aura of reasonableness, especially when combined with certain scientific findings. We now know that our universe burst into being some 13 billion years ago (the theory of the Big Bang, as it happens, was worked out by a Belgian priest), and that its initial conditions seem to have been “fine tuned” so that life would eventually arise. If you are not religiously inclined, you might take these as brute facts and be done with the matter. But if you think that there must be some ultimate explanation for the improbable leaping-into-existence of the harmonious, biofriendly cosmos we find ourselves in, then the God hypothesis is at least rational to adhere to, isn’t it?
No, it’s not, says Dawkins, whereupon he brings out what he views as “the central argument of my book.” At heart, this argument is an elaboration of the child’s question “But Mommy, who made God?” To posit God as the ground of all being is a nonstarter, Dawkins submits, for “any God capable of designing a universe, carefully and foresightfully tuned to lead to our evolution, must be a supremely complex and improbable entity who needs an even bigger explanation than the one he is supposed to provide.” Thus the God hypothesis is “very close to being ruled out by the laws of probability.”

Dawkins relies here on two premises: first, that a creator is bound to be more complex, and hence improbable, than his creation (you never, for instance, see a horseshoe making a blacksmith); and second, that to explain the improbable in terms of the more improbable is no explanation at all. Neither of these is among the “laws of probability,” as he suggests. The first is hotly disputed by theologians, who insist, in a rather woolly metaphysical way, that God is the essence of simplicity. He is, after all, infinite in every respect, and therefore much easier to define than a finite thing. Dawkins, however, points out that God can’t be all that simple if he is capable of, among other feats, simultaneously monitoring the thoughts of all his creatures and answering their prayers. (“Such bandwidth!” the author exclaims.)

If God is indeed more complex and improbable than his creation, does that rule him out as a valid explanation for the universe? The beauty of Darwinian evolution, as Dawkins never tires of observing, is that it shows how the simple can give rise to the complex. But not all scientific explanation follows this model. In physics, for example, the law of entropy implies that, for the universe as a whole, order always gives way to disorder; thus, if you want to explain the present state of the universe in terms of the past, you are pretty much stuck with explaining the probable (messy) in terms of the improbable (neat).

It is far from clear which explanatory model makes sense for the deepest question, the one that, Dawkins complains, his theologian friends keep harping on: why does the universe exist at all? Darwinian processes can take you from simple to complex, but they can’t take you from Nothing to Something. If there is an ultimate explanation for our contingent and perishable world, it would seemingly have to appeal to something that is both necessary and imperishable, which one might label “God.” Of course, it can’t be known for sure that there is such an explanation. Perhaps, as Russell thought, “the universe is just there, and that’s all.”

This sort of coolly speculative thinking could not be more remote from the rococo rituals of religion as it is actually practiced across the world. Why is it that all human cultures have religion if, as Dawkins believes he has proved, it rests on a delusion? Many thinkers — Marx, Freud, Durkheim — have produced natural histories of religion, arguing that it arose to serve some social or psychological function, such as, in Freud’s account, the fulfillment of repressed wishes toward a father-figure.
Dawkins’s own attempt at a natural history is Darwinian, but not in the way you might expect. He is skeptical that religion has any survival value, contending that its cost in blood and guilt outweighs any conceivable benefits. Instead, he attributes religion to a “misfiring” of something else that is adaptively useful; namely, a child’s evolved tendency to believe its parents. Religious ideas, he thinks, are viruslike “memes” that multiply by infecting the gullible brains of children. (Dawkins coined the term “meme” three decades ago to refer to bits of culture that, he holds, reproduce and compete the way genes do.) Each religion, as he sees it, is a complex of mutually compatible memes that has managed to survive a process of natural selection. (“Perhaps,” he writes in his usual provocative vein, “Islam is analogous to a carnivorous gene complex, Buddhism to a herbivorous one.”) Religious beliefs, on this view, benefit neither us nor our genes; they benefit themselves.

Dawkins’s gullible-child proposal is, as he concedes, just one of many Darwinian hypotheses that have been speculatively put forward to account for religion. (Another is that religion is a byproduct of our genetically programmed tendency to fall in love.) Perhaps one of these hypotheses is true. If so, what would that say about the truth of religious beliefs themselves? The story Dawkins tells about religion might also be told about science or ethics. All ideas can be viewed as memes that replicate by jumping from brain to brain. Some of these ideas, Dawkins observes, spread because they are good for us, in the sense that they raise the likelihood of our genes getting into the next generation; others — like, he claims, religion — spread because normally useful parts of our minds “misfire.” Ethical values, he suggests, fall into the first category. Altruism, for example, benefits our selfish genes when it is lavished on close kin who share copies of those genes, or on non-kin who are in a position to return the favor. But what about pure “Good Samaritan” acts of kindness? These, Dawkins says, could be “misfirings,” although, he hastens to add, misfirings of a “blessed, precious” sort, unlike the nasty religious ones.

But the objectivity of ethics is undermined by Dawkins’s logic just as surely as religion is. The evolutionary biologist E. O. Wilson, in a 1985 paper written with the philosopher Michael Ruse, put the point starkly: ethics “is an illusion fobbed off on us by our genes to get us to cooperate,” and “the way our biology enforces its ends is by making us think that there is an objective higher code to which we are all subject.” In reducing ideas to “memes” that propagate by various kinds of “misfiring,” Dawkins is, willy-nilly, courting what some have called Darwinian nihilism.

He is also hasty in dismissing the practical benefits of religion. Surveys have shown that religious people live longer (probably because they have healthier lifestyles) and feel happier (perhaps owing to the social support they get from church). Judging from birthrate patterns in the United States and Europe, they also seem to be outbreeding secular types, a definite Darwinian advantage. On the other hand, Dawkins is probably right when he says that believers are no better than atheists when it comes to behaving ethically. One classic study showed that “Jesus people” were just as likely to cheat on tests as atheists and no more likely to do altruistic volunteer work. Oddly, Dawkins does not bother to cite such empirical evidence; instead, he relies, rather unscientifically, on his intuition. “I’m inclined to suspect,” he writes, “that there are very few atheists in prison.” (Even fewer Unitarians, I’d wager.) It is, however, instructive when he observes that the biblical Yahweh is an “appalling role model,” sanctioning gang-rape and genocide. Dawkins also deals at length with the objection, which he is evidently tired of hearing, that the arch evildoers of the last century, Hitler and Stalin, were both atheists. Hitler, he observes, “never formally renounced his Catholism”; and in the case of Stalin, a onetime Orthodox seminarian, “there is no evidence that his atheism motivated his brutality.” The equally murderous Mao goes unmentioned, but perhaps it could be argued that he was a religion unto himself.

Despite the many flashes of brilliance in this book, Dawkins’s failure to appreciate just how hard philosophical questions about religion can be makes reading it an intellectually frustrating experience. As long as there are no decisive arguments for or against the existence of God, a certain number of smart people will go on believing in him, just as smart people reflexively believe in other things for which they have no knock-down philosophical arguments, like free will, or objective values, or the existence of other minds. Dawkins asserts that “the presence or absence of a creative super-intelligence is unequivocally a scientific question.”

But what possible evidence could verify or falsify the God hypothesis?

The doctrine that we are presided over by a loving deity has become so rounded and elastic that no earthly evil or natural disaster, it seems, can come into collision with it. Nor is it obvious what sort of event might unsettle an atheist’s conviction to the contrary. Russell, when asked about this by a Look magazine interviewer in 1953, said he might be convinced there was a God “if I heard a voice from the sky predicting all that was going to happen to me during the next 24 hours.” Short of such a miraculous occurrence, the only thing that might resolve the matter is an experience beyond the grave — what theologians used to call, rather pompously, “eschatological verification.” If the after-death options are either a beatific vision (God) or oblivion (no God), then it is poignant to think that believers will never discover that they are wrong, whereas Dawkins and fellow atheists will never discover that they are right.

As for those in between — ranging from agnostics to “spiritual” types for whom religion is not so much a metaphysical proposition as it is a way of life, illustrated by stories and enhanced by rituals — they might take consolation in the wise words of the Rev. Andrew Mackerel, the hero of Peter De Vries’s 1958 comic novel “The Mackerel Plaza”: “It is the final proof of God’s omnipotence that he need not exist in order to save us.”

Over and Out...

Friday, April 20, 2007

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Oswald

Who's Oswald???... and why should i care?

Think of me as the good samaritan with the bad intentions.I'm cold blooded but warm hearted.I'm a riddle you wont solve unless i grant you access to my world. I'm not a copy or an imitation. I have many qualities some good, some bad. But either way they are my own. I don't have much need for blood relations. My friends are my family.I love extreme fun anything that gives adrenaline rushes. I don't care for peoples opinions of me. So don't waste your time talking shit on me. I do not hate life. I do not think it suck's either. LIFE DOES NOT SUCK, PEOPLE JUST SUCK AT LIFE ! I have many ideas and plans but i lack the motivation. Sometimes i write, songs, poetry, thoughts. It's hard to find people that are on the same wave length as me. I like people who make me laugh.I give pretty much everyone a chance but if you screw it up it's your problem.

Es asqueroso, de verdad, asqueroso!!!

Estoy apoyado en una de las puertas del metro, de las que no se abren, para ser más exactos. Tengo a un tipo hurgándose la nariz de manera que solo puede catalogarse de obscena. Él está al final del vagón, apoyado, a mi izquierda, tan cerca que casi podría indicarle el camino a la chingada. Tiene la atención de absolutamente todo el vagón, nos tiene hipnotizados.

Me viene a la mente esto: empalar al deficiente nasal, arrojarlo al vacío.

Dejo de observar al pequeño arqueólogo porque prefiero mirarme. Miro lo que llevo puesto y sé que me voy a morir de calor en pocos minutos, lo sé. Poco más aparte de mujeres maquilladas, caras de polvorón… Una mujer que rondará los 30 y muchos, es asombrosamente hermosa, lo que es raro porque a esas horas la gente está como deforme. Por la inclinación de la cadera y cómo me mira sé que me prefiere a mi antes que a su marido [lo siento, tenía que decirlo].

Pienso: pérfida, insatisfecha sexual, monotonía conyugal.

Toca hacer trasbordo en la próxima estación y corro como un cabrón para no tener que respirar la marabunta de colonias que me trago cuando me despisto y que me dejan aletargado.

Para mi infortunio el panorama de la próxima estación no varía mucho del anterior.

Más gente sacándose mocos. Maquillaje, más maquillaje, ésta se está maquillando [por amor al Cielo, lleva más pintura que un bodegón, pero parece que no tiene suficiente] en el vagón mientras mantiene una conversación absurda con su compañero de asiento, lo sé pese a que con mi música no les oigo, porque el tipo con el que está hablando lleva el pelo relamido hacia atrás con alguna sustancia barata.

Pienso: rimel barato, ojo, un perro andaluz, cómprate un auto.

La humanidad es como un gris paisaje monótono, y yo el que lo observa, indiferente pero aburrido. Las zorras siguen maquillándose, aunque hay que reconocer que no se sacan los ojos [como el del moco].

Generalmente no me entero de estas cosas, porque estoy completamente abstraído con mi música, pero estos días como no me ha sido posible, me veo obligado a observar a mi alrededor, lo que es una pena, porque por mucho que suba el volumen no puedo salir de todo aquello. Realmente no me interesa la gente que me rodea porque… bueno, porque… porque a lo mejor me pegan algo y acabo viendo reality shows y se acabo.

No me puedo apartar de todo aquello y lo que veo me asquea. Un ciclo continuo de mala leche que sólo logro suavizar gracias a contadas personas. Esto no tiene moraleja; no hay conclusión; ni pretendo hacer pensar a nadie; no tiene ni principio ni fin, porque no sé cuando o donde empezó todo, no sé cuando va a acabar; ni siquiera sé si al final acabaré siendo asimilado y dejaré de comerme la cabeza para volverme un maldito parásito.


"Sólo me gustaría ser idiota para no preocuparme tanto, o ser tan inteligente que desde mi superioridad no me afecte tampoco la mediocridad y la rutina"

Emile Cioran

Revisitando el DF


Son las diez de la noche y está lloviendo...

El taxi dobla en el parque de la calle y veo un aparador que dice "valet parking" cubierto por una sombrilla multicolor. Alrededor del cordón rojo se agolpa un montón de gente mojándose, algunos con sombrillas... Y en el espacio libre veo a un tipo que trae una camisa de mil encajes, medio darkie o algo así y una peluca a lo María Antonieta y algo como un rompevientos que dice en inglés "let´s make love" bordadas sobre un corazón rojo...

El tipo grita: -esta noche no hay cortesías!!

Y me saca de ese pequeño trance en el que parece que iba cayendo, como Alicia, me siento extraña y fuera de lugar, el acceso es solo con cover"- concluye, entro a la bola y empujando gente me acerco a él.

- Soy invitada de *****- digo cuando el tipo abre el cordón y me recoje mi invitación.

El tipo me mira extrañado, asiente, ladra algo por un radio y me conduce al acceso del stage. Junto a la puerta me topo con una niña con toda la pinta de ser modelo y anoréxica, con un modelito muy Westwood de los 80´s y un abrigo de piel sintética.

La niña se me queda viendo con sus ojos de manga japonés, como si se hubiese quedado prendada de mí. Me conduce al backstage por unas escaleras y un pasillo iluminado por infrarrojos y algunos láser verdes donde una bola de gente tipo raver bailan mientras las parpadeantes luces proyectan unas grecas caprichosas sobre los muros altos de espejo. La plataforma inferior es más humeda, veo a unas personas
rapadas y greñudas frente a unas laptops y unos tornamesas. Algunos tipos con pinta de dealers que corren ectasy.

Camino en el pasillo, el suelo desciende y estoy sobre una pasarela de acero, que termina en una gigantesca pista de baile repleta de una multitud, volteo hacia los tipos de las laptops, donde hay cuatro tornamesas, donde ***** pincha algo que suena como a jungle, con unos toques de ambient, acid jazz y drum n´bass, rítmico y ensordecedor.

***** está pinchando discos, junto a su ayudante, un chico jamaiquino, que levanta las manos mientras sus dreadlocks vuelan por los aires. El stage, la pista y las paredes parecen girar de manera centrífuga debido a las luces de los estrobos y los
láser que parpadean incesantemente. Cuando estoy a punto de perder el equilibrio, la niña sacada de un manga, me señala la sala VIP custodiada por dos tipos, que traen unas polo rojas con el mismo bordado de corazón y el "let´s make love".

Tras las paredes de metacrilato hay como una imitación de sala de espera del aeropuerto Heatrow de Londres, aunque con unas luces negras e infrarrojas, unos sofás tapizados de piel negra y mesas de centro blancas, como de granito con un jardín zen encima... muy minimalistas.

En las paredes blancas hay colgado un cuadro que dice "procrea" con letras negras...

El sonido toca algo así como Brian Eno, como el "music for airports".

Hay una bola como de diseñadores, músicos, y pseudoyuppies muy retros, algunas modelos con pinta condechi, (con tatuajes o lo que parece rayones con henna) algunas con colitas y uniforme como sacadas de la Academia Maddox.

Todos toman bebidas o agua embotellada, o comen uvas de un platón algunos con cerveza en mano o tomando red-bull o alguna bebida psybertrónica. En el VIP hace mucho frío al respirar, mi aliento se solidifica, mientras en el stage la gente brilla aperladamente por el sudor, lo cual envidio en este momento.

De pronto, una chica que estaba sentada en un sofá de piel se pone a gritar como una posesa cuando empieza a sonar "Lust for Life" de Iggy Pop, salta sobre la plataforma del dancefloor, se arranca la playera TO BE que lleva puesta y queda solo con sus jeans y las botas Martens, empieza a brincar y dar vueltas haciendo movimientos como si estuviese dando brazadas al nadar.

Mientras observo.. todo transcurre.. en cámara lenta.. como si lo estuviera viviendo en la pantalla de un viejo autocinema...

ComIenZa eL fEstIvaL



I take no responsibility for any eye burnin, brain rottin, loss of sanity or any other physical or mental trauma caused by this..

Después de varias amenazas por correo que hacen ver a los videos de Cho Seung Hui como poesía romántica, he decidido que es momento de comenzar el festival.

A casi un año de su concepción en un café en la Condesa, este festival pretende que los (y las) lectores de este Blog participen en él, y no solo eso, sino que cualquiera con algo que aportar aparezca para enriquecerlo y diversificarlo.

Los textos presentados aparecen sin edición de los organizadores y están presentados previa autorización (casi todos) de sus autores.

Todo festival tiene que tener un principio, un génesis, este lo tiene con una de sus co-creadoras, Fanny.

Quien es Fanny???



Fanny es mexicana por nacimiento, mercadologa por convicción y filosofa por adicción.

Es esa clase de chica mezcla de inteligencia y vehemencia que te hace charlar por horas o estar en silencio por días.

Victima de insomnio como yo, se pasa las noches en alguna fría habitación de hotel (por cuestiones de trabajo) llenando una vieja libreta de ideas tan rápido como su muñeca se lo permite, también es una de esas chicas que murmura mientras lee... Fué la primera en responder al llamado de trabajos y por ende con ella empezaremos.

Como saben la retroalimentación es por medio de comentarios y/o correos electrónicos.

ENJOY!!!